It's been a wild week this week: myriad demands from clients and work obligations had me running from place to place. This morning, as I sat down to meditate, I had a very difficult time settling my mind.
Even meditation teachers have trouble meditating sometimes.
As my thoughts continued to flood into my meditation, I focused on my breath. I focused on gravity. I threw a bubble up around myself to prevent anything from coming in. Calendar points kept popping up and I thought, "Oh, but (so and so) needs this from me." The thought kept running through my mind and distilled down to: "They need me." And I immediately stopped and a voice from deep inside said,
"I need me."
It doesn't matter what other people need from me. I need me first. I need me to support me, to foster my desires and dreams, to give myself a break. Yes, that grammar is atrocious, but it gets the point across.
I'm currently reading The Fire Starter Sessions by Danielle LaPorte and I'm pretty sure I've found another inspiring woman from whom I will learn so much. In it is a quote I wrote down in my planner so I can see it often:
"If you try to keep your most sacred ambitions off of your weekly calendar and your most genuine traits off of your resume, then you're mission out on the power of real integrity."
Wow. Just wow! How often do we let the things that are most sacred to us: family time, church, meditation, yoga, phone calls with friends, time at the gym, etc. fall off our weekly calendar? How often do we prioritize our partner, our kids, our job, our school, and so forth at the expense of ourselves?
If we don't list ourselves among our priorities and nurture our soul, then we won't be able to be the best version of ourselves.
Wait. Let me rephrase that:
If you don't list yourself among your priorities and nurture your soul, then you won't be able to be the best version of yourself.
There's an old adage that you must fill your cup before you can fill others' and it's so true. Pay attention to you. Hell, schedule "me time" into your calendar if you have to and -- here's the catch -- hold yourself to that scheduled me time. You need it. You need you just as much as, if not more than, everyone else.